Mommy Struggle #4

In the last series of “mommy struggles” I talked about my anxiety having more children. Well, I’m happy and overwhelmed and excited and nervous to say that I will be learning firsthand what it means to be a mom of 2. I’m now 16 weeks pregnant and boy, is this pregnancy different than the last. For one thing, those anxieties about how I’m going to handle more children is less of a (scary) dream and becoming my reality. The hardest part is not the pregnancy itself, it’s my expectations and my insecurities about whether or not I’ll be able to handle 2 kids. Which was pretty much he hardest part of my first pregnancy. The answer: of course, I will, right? People have babies everyday. 2 and 3 and sometimes even 6! Surely, I can handle 2 kids under 3….

This pregnancy itself has been pretty easy. Some nausea and sickness in the beginning but now that I’m in the second trimester, I feel pretty good. I’m still exhausted and even more so than last time since I have a toddler to take care of this time around, but other than that I can’t complain. So I won’t. I’ll only say that I’m thankful and feeling very lucky to be able to have another baby and to get double the love that I’ve already been blessed to receive. But I’m still tired and cranky. Sorry, I can’t help myself.

I guess what I want to convey is that the struggles we have as moms a lot of the time is pressure we put on ourselves. As women and as mothers. All the worry and anxiety about being able to have another baby was for nothing. God only gives you what you can handle, right? So apparently I’ve got this mom of 2 gig in the bag 😉 

 

17 weeks pregnant!